Thursday, December 03, 2009

Creative Therapy

Have been making Christmas cards lately; well, actually I made them last January, just adding the finishing touches this week and posting them off to a few select friends! ;)



I took the photo while exploring Melbourne city last December, and printed off the photo and even stuff them onto the front of folded card about a year ago, but by then it was too late to send Christmas cards, I think I only gave away a couple. This year they were ready to go, and I just added an excerpt from one of my favourite poems. We studied this in high school with Mrs Brown, and it's been a favourite ever since...

Journey of the Magi

'A cold coming we had of it,
Just the worst time of the year
For a journey, and such a long journey:
The ways deep and the weather sharp,
The very dead of winter.'
And the camels galled, sore-footed, refractory,
Lying down in the melting snow.
There were times when we regretted
The summer palaces on slopes, the terraces,
And the silken girls bringing sherbet.
Then the camel men cursing and grumbling
And running away, and wanting their liquor and women,
And the night-fires going out, and the lack of shelters,
And the cities dirty and the towns unfriendly
And the villages dirty and charging high prices:
A hard time we had of it.
At the end we preferred to travel all night,
Sleeping in snatches,
With the voices singing in our ears, saying
That this was all folly.

Then at dawn we came down to a temperate valley,
Wet, below the snow line, smelling of vegetation;
With a running stream and a water mill beating the darkness,
And three trees on the low sky,
And an old white horse galloped away in the meadow.
Then we came to a tavern with vine-leaves over the lintel,
Six hands at an open door dicing for pieces of silver,
And feet kicking the empty wineskins.
But there was no information, and so we continued
And arrived at evening, not a moment too soon
Finding the place; it was (you may say) satisfactory.

All this was a long time ago, I remember,
And I would do it again, but set down
This set down
This: were we led all that way for
Birth or Death? There was a Birth, certainly,
We had evidence and no doubt. I had seen birth and death,
But had thought they were different; this Birth was
Hard and bitter agony for us, like Death, our death.
We returned to our places, these Kingdoms,
But no longer at ease here, in the old dispensation,
With an alien people clutching their gods.
I should be glad of another death.

~ T.S. Eliot

Wednesday, December 02, 2009

R.I.P. dear Alex

In my heart I will miss you
In my mind I will kiss you
Every day of my life
Until death.
R.I.P.

Call this an on-line journal

This song has been playing through my mind and ministering to my spirit lately; we sang it last Sunday at church. Rather than bother everyone on facebook with my broken spirit, I will share it here, privately with you instead!

Hillsongs - I Am Carried

Verse 1:
Day by day and hour by hour
Your love for me from Heaven flows
Like streams of water in the desert living waters flow
You walk beside me gently guiding leading me through every storm
Everlasting, never changing grace and love divine

Verse 2:
Mercy's healing grace relieving every spot and ev'ry stain
Forgiven freely no more guilty love has conquered shame
The broken mended night has ended leading me through every storm
For I am carried in the arms of grace and love divine

Chorus:
I am carried in the arms of grace and love divine
I am held by hands of healing washed by water pure
Lifting up my heavy heart held in grace scarred hands
I am carried in the arms of grace and love divine

Verse 3:
Never worthy never earning all my works now left behind
Ever onwards ever upwards You've called me on to rise
Above my darkness all my failure every fear and every pain
Always carried always covered by grace and love divine

Chorus again.

Tuesday, December 01, 2009

Song for Today

Mike and the Mechanics, “All I need is a Miracle

I said "go if you wanna go,
Stay if you wanna stay"
I didn't care if you hung around me
I didn't care if you went away
And I know you were never right
I'll admit I was never wrong
I could never make up my mind
I made it up as I went along

And though I treated you like a child
I'm gonna miss you for the rest of my life

All I need is a miracle, all I need is you
All I need is a miracle, all I need is you
All I need is a miracle, all I need is you

I never had any time
And I never had any call
But I went out of my way just to hurt you,
The one I shouldn't hurt at all
I thought I was being cool
Yeah, I thought I was being strong
But it's always the same old story
You never know what you've got 'til it's gone

If I ever catch up with you
I'm gonna love you for the rest of your life

All I need is a miracle, all I need is you (all I need is a miracle)
All I need is a miracle, all I need is you (all I need is a miracle)
All I need is a miracle, all I need is you

And if I ever catch up with you
I'm gonna love you for the rest of your life
All I need is a miracle, all I need is you (all I need is a miracle)
All I need is a miracle, all I need is you (all I need is a miracle)
All I need is a miracle, all I need is you (all I need is a miracle)
All I need is a, all I need is a,
All I need is you (all I need is a miracle)

Thursday, November 26, 2009

A Loving Hand on the Helm

This was the devotional attached to those verses (below): lifted straight out of Selwyn Hughes’ ‘Caring for the Soul’ (copyright CWR 2005).

A Loving Hand on the Helm
Sometimes God denies us a shallow answer so that we may put our roots deeper into eternal reality, and consequently stand tall and strong in any future storm.
A Welsh preacher used to say, “We must learn to live in time and eternity simultaneously.” If the time side of life seems to be full of trouble then the eternity side holds us steady.
A missionary to the Chinese people was asked for the secret of his poise and inner strength. He answered, “Confidence in the goodness of God”. Pressed to expand on that statement, he added, “I have come to a place in my Christian life where I am convinced that in the midst of the worst thing that can happen there is a good and wise purpose at work. Thus I can go on, knowing that love is at the helm of my life. God loves me too much to let anything happen to me that will not work out for good.”

This is something I know I need to practise believing.

Lessons in humility

Feel like God’s been teaching me a lot lately, summed up in the words, “The Lord gives and the Lord takes away; blessed be the name of the Lord.” (Job 1:21b, paraphrased).

This morning, the reading was Isaiah 30:1-18. On second reading, I felt God pointing out these verses to me:
“In repentance and rest is your salvation, in quietness and trust is your strength, but you would have none of it…
Yet the Lord longs to be gracious to you; he rises to show you compassion. For the Lord is a God of justice. Blessed are all who wait for him!
O people of Zion… you will weep no more. How gracious he will be when you cry for help! As soon as he hears, he will answer you. Although the Lord gives you the bread of adversity and the water of affliction, your teachers will be hidden no more; with your own eyes you will see them. Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you saying, “This is the way; walk in it.” Then you will defile your idols overlaid with gold; you will throw them away like a menstrual cloth and say to them, “Away with you!”

Certainly there have been idols, but I’m tempted to say, “Okay, I get it. Can I have him back now?”

Obviously I still have a ways to go…

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

A poem that's been running through my head...

Don't Quit!

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low, and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As everyone of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about,
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up though the pace seems slow,
You may succeed with another blow.

Success is failure turned inside out,
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit,
It's when things seem worse, that...
You Must Not Quit.

~ C. W. Longenecker ~

Thursday, November 05, 2009

A tree and me

The desire to give up (on life) is looming large, but…

I saw a tree today
Its trunk and branches covered with scars
Where it had connected with wires that
Interfered with its growth.
There were many scars, but the tree
Was beautiful, covered in green,
Growing strong, growing up
Into the sky and towards the sun.

I am like that tree today,
With a sad old heart carrying scars
Where I have connected with events that
Interfered with my growth.
But, rooted in streams of living water
I am beautiful, covered by grace,
Growing strong, growing up
Into the sky and towards the Son.

Written by Ali 5 Nov. 09

Tuesday, November 03, 2009

Thoughts

No dress, no party, no husband. Just a fool who thinks we can still be "friends".